the things that go unsaid

Tony was a good man.    His daughter will bear the scars of him leaving so young.    I think I bear the ones of my father leaving at 22.    It does’nt matter.    It is what is is.

Theres 2 songs that I can’t get through.   One is danny boy.   My father played me that song before he died.   he sent it to me when I lived in Maryland.   It’s almost like he knew his own mortality.   I don’t think he knew his own legacy.    it was large.   It’s huge to me anyway.

The other is this song.    Rancid, fall back down.   Different time, different era, but from a good friend as well.

Today well ride for tony.   Taking his daughter, and his brother is taking his bike.   Like me, he rode to blow off the stress of the day.   he liked snow canyon and he liked sand hollow.    we’ll go those places and think of him.   I have daughters.   hell, its all ive got.   I think about what my own father passed to me.   material possesions that fade away.       At the end of the day, its whats in your blood that passes on.   he’s in me.  The dunn that as far as I’m concerned started with my grandfather and my dad got, and is in me as well.    I saw his fears, his triumphs, his dark days and his shining moments he was proud of.   those things are in me.    It’s going to take time for that to sink in to tony’s kids.   it took time for me.   Eventually, we all figure out that it’s who we are is whats the most important.   We all figure out that it’s our families, and our gene pool that make us who we are.  It’s why old people like family reunions.

Today is tony’s day.   After that, I’m gonna put it to rest, and hold the memory.

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